Today is my 34th birthday and it was humbling, quiet and amazing. I spent most of the day at chemotherapy with my father. Afterward, picked up my daughter from school and we had a quiet dinner with my husband at home. There were no flashy gifts or big parties, just a peaceful day of reflection and family bonding.
Although I am saddened by my father's very challenging and debilitating fight against cancer, I couldn't help thinking how his journey humbles and inspires me through his strength and ability to remain a humble student of life. He could be angry, but he isn't. He is poised as he moves forward, determined to conquer the cancer that lurks inside of him. My father's courage to forge forward also inspired me to meditate about what a healthy life means to me. I have a passion for nutrition even though following the straight and narrow path of proper food nourishment in a world of crooked paths is very difficult for me. I recognize I have a food addiction and I also recognize that the addiction will speed the degeneration of my body and my spirit if I don't change. My goal today and through the weekend (and ultimately life) is to really learn how to meditate on my food intake as a blessing, as a source of nourishment, as a path to health and life.
My 15-year-old daughter asked me to snuggle with her tonight (something that doesn't happen often in these teenage years) and it warmed my heart. Lying with her as she fell asleep filled my heart with so much love and joy and I remembered how desperately I want to be the best mother, and someday grandmother, I can be in this life. I want to go to the beach with my daughter and play volleyball, to get on the floor with my grandchildren someday and play and giggle and laugh, to encourage a healthy, active lifestyle that she will emulate with her own family as an adult. These things are very important to me. I must believe I am capable of achieving a happy and healthy body so that I can better project my happy heart.
Today I am counting my birthday blessings and promising myself a life of health and happiness.
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